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17 February 2017 @ 12:00 pm
Quick update on the thesis, today we're sending our first draft to Francesca's professor. I'm so nervous, let's hope he likes it! I was talking with my therapist yesterday, and we both agreed on how much this has helped me: working, having a purpose, doing something that only I can do, it makes me feel so useful, something that I haven't felt ever since this whole cancer thing started. I have noodle arms, so helping with physical tasks is out of the question (when I try I get tackled by the nearest family member and offered a cup of herbal tea), but using my brain is exactly what I'm good at! \o/

Yesterday I was talking with my aunt about the thesis, and it quickly snowballed into a heated discussion about angelic hierarchies and politheism in monotheistic religions. Then we had a glass of warm milk and honey and went back to the role of Michael as related to God. I'm learning so much while working on this thesis, and there is so much food for thought and discussion.

Unrelated, but have you heard the news? Philip Pullman is publishing a new trilogy, the Book of Dust, set in the same universe as His Dark Materials, and Lyra will be back! I'm so excited, I loved those books so much, but I never thought we'd get more novels. What a wonderful announcement!
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Current Music: sea of dreams - oberhofer
Happy name day to me! I see lots of chocolate in my near future. *_____*

I've been spending the last week helping my cousin re-write all her graduation thesis. It's about the Dead Sea Scrolls, the Qumran sect, and the concepts of dualism and predeterminism in Judaism. It's fascinating, and exactly my jam! (For those of you who weren't here 11 years ago, I graduated in Archaeology with a thesis on Roman Topography) I'm learning a lot of stuff, and after the first couple of days where I got huge headaches, my brain is finally back in top shape, and by the end of the week we should already have a draft good enough to be sent to her Professor. I'm equal parts nervous and excited! Plus it makes me feel useful and it gives me a lot of purpose, it's really a great thing to do.

Next week I have a dreadful appointment so some doctors can visit me and decide if I deserve my invalidity pension (in Italy cancer patients have a pension that gets renewed every year after a visit). It's a red tape kind of thing, but we'll have to talk in detail about all my exams, medicines, everything from 2015 up to now. It's going to be brutal. After that we'll have lunch at a japanese place because I'm going to need the pick-me-up.

In fandom news, I watched all Bojack Horseman and holy shit was that a great show. The writing is absolutely stunning. And the acting! It's really incredible. We really do live in a golden age for animation.

What else? I'm reading American Gods in the original English, and loving it. I read it years ago, and I remember only a couple of scenes and maybe a bit of the ending, so in light of the new tv series coming I thought it would be a good idea to re-read the novel. I'm loving it, although I keep getting distracted by fanfics. Too little time, too many fandoms. ^^"

I should go back to Venice next week for a quick visit. It's smack in the middle of the Carnevale, so usually I'd avoid that period, but I have a couple of things to do and most importantly my aunt and uncle will come with! I am so getting my aunt to make me frittelle di Carnevale! *_____*
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Current Music: bloom - the paper kites
I can't believe it's been two weeks already since my last entry! The big news is, I had my quarterly visit with my oncologist, and it went splendidly! She says everything's going great, and that I'm to keep taking the same meds and we'll see each other again in April. That means that this is officially the longest I've been doing the same medicine ever since I started doing chemo. \o/ We also talked about the Concert (it's a concert in London I bought tickets for last May, as soon as I finished the first round of chemo - it's Yoko Shimomura, whose music I adore, but it's also a promise I made to myself to keep feeling better and better so that a year later I could take a plane and visit another country, a promise it turns out I kept!), and she was very enthusiastic about it and rescheduled my March appointment so that I could go! And she asked me to make her a cd of Shimomura-san's music too! How cool is that?

Next monday I'm going back to Venice for a week, as I have to meet with my lawyer and go to the bank. And also tell everyone I know how brilliantly the visit went. :D On wednesday I already have an appointment with my therapist, who I couldn't see last time because of the awful combination of cold weather and delicate lungs. This time the weather should be nice, plus my therapist has started doing pet therapy too, and I'm hoping I'll get to see one of the dogs. She sent me some pictures, they look so cute and huggable!

In fandom news, I watched Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency on Netflix, and I absolutely adored it. It's a fantastic adaptation of a series of novels by Douglas Adams, and it's as weird and funny as you would expect it to be, while having fantastic plot and character development, a diverse cast, great female characters with their own storylines and agendas who are never sexualized, and really great acting. It's eight episodes, around six hours long, and it's *Arthur Shappey's voice* brilliant. *____*

Now I have to run, my uncle went out to buy pizzas, and at 9 pm we're going to the cinema to watch Rogue One (third time for me!) ♥
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Current Music: white flag - joseph
Happy New Year, everyone! I hope it was a great start of the new year for all of you! Me, I watched Singing In The Rain, toasted with my uncle, watched the neighbours shoot fireworks in the garden, and then slept like a log because I'm not used to stay awake that late, or drinking alcohol. :D

Health news first, the other exam results came in, and even though they're all good too, my oncologist is thinking of adjusting my therapy, basically by changing the main medicine I take. It's pretty standard with immunotherapy, as they keep telling me, but I'm still an anxious ball of nerves who hates changes in her routine. They might still decide not to do it, but either way they'll call me with their decision on the matter soon.

There's been some changes to LJ lately that I've only just heard about. They moved their servers from California to Russia, so everyone is freaking out that they're going to close the English-speaking parts of the site. Could be, although I'm much more worried about those awful anti-lgbt laws they have in Russia. I've had a dreamwidth account for years, where I do a back-up of my blog every few months. It's nausicaa83 over there as well, so feel free to add me. I'll start using it as my main blog only when LJ closes down definitely, as this is my home and I have tons of icons I don't want to lose. And my beautiful theme! *sigh*

In fandom news, they leaked all the episodes to the Steven Universe bomb they'll air next month. It was, again, an official leak from Cartoon Network. I just don't understand it. Do they want their most lucrative show to lose ratings so badly? Why would they do that? As I'm not American and have no way of contribute to the ratings, I watched the leaked episodes and loved them to pieces, but I'm still puzzled by this whole situation.

I'm going back home to Venice this weekend, but only for a week. I have to get a few papers at City Hall for my uncle, and I really miss my cat. ^^
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Current Music: while my guitar gently weeps - regina spektor
Hope you're all having a great time with your family and loved ones! Happy Holidays, of whatever kind you celebrate!

Quick update, I caught some stupid virus from my aunt, and spent the last three days with a fever and a horrible cough. Nothing serious, only really annoying. I drank a lot of fluids, took my meds, spent the days in bed with my laptop. Boring but effective, because today I feel a lot better.

Just before the fever hit I managed to do the usual exam for my heart (the meds I take can affect the heart, so I have to keep an eye on it), and everything looks great as always. So yay! I'm so happy I had the exam when I did, because six hours later I wouldn't have been able to leave the house, so double yay for my body's timing. Now I'm free until the 29th, when it's time for the usual immunotherapy.

In other news I'm still marathoning Prison Break, and it really helped passing the time when sick. I'm almost halfway through season 4, and really, really loving it. Great acting, great dialogues, but most of all a great story that keeps raising the stakes with every new season. *____*

So that's it for me. Happy Holidays everyone!
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Current Music: wild is the wind - cat power
18 December 2016 @ 10:43 pm
Just came back from watching Rogue One, so here's the obligatory spoiler-free entry: it was brilliant, in every aspect, the perfect blend of beautiful plot and character development, nostalgia and modern storytelling. I loved every character in that fantastically diverse cast, I loved Jyn to pieces, and Andor, and that scene with Vader in the hallway was worth the price of the ticket alone! I got chills, I cried, I squeed in delight. The cameos and nods to the original trilogy were handled amazingly well, perfectly woven into the story without being jarring. And those cgi characters were seriously well-done, kudos.

But most of all the story, the dialogue, the characters! The way they depicted the Rebel Alliance, in a way they'd never done before, and that I wasn't expecting at all. The beaches. Yavin 4. My new otp, which is incredibly easy to identify if you know me. The music! The fight scenes with the X-Wings, that looked even better than in The Force Awakens! The more I think about it, the more I love this movie. \o/

Comments will probably contain spoilers, so if you've seen this wonderful movie, come squeal with me!
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Great news everybody! Yesterday I had the big exams I have every three months, and lo and behold one of them shows my cancer is in remission! Some parts have disappeared, the rest has strongly diminished. I've gone through all stages of joy and relief, which included vibrating at such a high frequency the doctors told me I had to relax or they couldn't do the other exam. Then I came home and crashed. Goodbye adrenaline, my old friend.

Other highlights of the past few days include one of the doctors, the one who operated on me a few months back, telling me he could never forget me because I'm such a great person he looks up to me and my strength. Which left me blabbering and blushing for half an hour at least. That was so unexpected and so nice!

Then, on the evening before the exams I saved my family's life! We were all sitting in the kitchen, watching tv, and I started feeling weird and it hurt between my eyes. I ran to check the hob and there was gas leaking out. We opened all windows, and sat in the cold night air breathing it in for a while. My aunt got really scared, and now she insists on buying one of those thingies that can tell when there's a gas leak. I'll see if I can get one on amazon. She also called me her guardian angel, and I haven't stopped smiling since. ^^

In fandom news, I binge-watched all of Legends of Tomorrow, and it was surprisingly much better than the reviews I had read said! The first season suffers from a very boring villain, and that Kendra and Carter storyline, but other than that I thought it was intriguing and funny, and there were a couple of plot twists there that had me shouting at the screen. With the second season we got much better villains (one of my favourite villains ever, let's face it) and Sara got an even larger role, so I'm as happy as I can be with the direction the show has taken. Plus I really love Amaya, and I hope that cameo in episode 9 means a certain someone is coming back to the show for good.

I've also started watching Prison Break, super late, I know, and so far I'm really intrigued. I started watching it because of Wentworth Miller and Dominic Purcell, but I'm really enjoying everything about it. I have to say I'm a bit puzzled they did four seasons of it, considering the premise should cover one season at best, but hey, I'm only at episode four, so what do I know? *shrugs*

So yep, it's been a pretty eventful week for me. My cousin comes back from Ireland tomorrow, and on sunday we're going to see Rogue One together, and then have sushi. We did the same thing last year, almost to the day. I had just started chemo, I was still hurting everywhere and I'd just lost my hair. A couple of days later I got surgery for the cvc. It was as tiring as climbing a mountain, but I was so ecstatic to be out of the house for something other than being in the hospital. So now it's our December tradition to celebrate how far I've come: watch a Star Wars movie, have sushi, and this time nothing is going to hurt! \o/
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Current Music: sweet caroline - neil diamond
So here's the update about how I've been doing! I still need to learn that my body is a lot weaker than I'm used to, and everytime I'm caught in a cold draft I end up with a stiff neck for a week, coughing and the like. So there's that. But at least I don't panic anymore, and that counts as a win. I've been to therapy twice, tried to arrange for the plumber to come over, I finally got the receipt for my taxes back from the accountant, and arranged a meeting with my lawyer.

Other than that boring - but awesome because it makes me feel like a normal competent adult again - stuff, I've been doing lots of wonderful things that make me feel like a normal adult with hobbies. In no particular order, I've been taking lots of cute pictures of my cat:


Baking cookies for the first time in almost two years:


And they came out delicious, if I do say so myself. I've been playing World of Final Fantasy and Final Fantasy XV and enjoying them both a lot, even though I'll have to wait to continue playing FFXV until January because I don't have a PS4 back in Piedmont. The new Rivers of London book finally came out, and it was brilliant. They finally went back to London and the main plot was back again, although I wish they'd spent more time in the Folly. It felt like we were barely there. It was still great to see Nightingale again, though.

I've been binge-watching Supergirl, and it's adorable although the plot is kinda weak, especially considering how it's the strongest aspect of The Flash. I love how the cast is mostly female, and how they are not even in the vicinity of fucking around when talking about sexism. Plus the way the coming out story was handled was perfect and had me in tears at how great it was, and if only they eased up on the love triangles for Kara and gave us a stronger main plot it would be absolutely perfect. I feel a bit envious of today's little girls who have shows like this one, to be honest.

I'm also re-watching season 2 of The Flash because I love it, and I get to watch the blurays on my awesome tv instead of mkv files on my laptop. HD quality, oh yeah. *_____* Today the super crossover finally started (I don't think the Supergirl episode really counts), and it was everything I wanted and more. I watched it twice in a row squealing and cheering. It feels so good to be so invested in a tv show again! \o/
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Current Music: if it makes you happy - sheryl crow
What a week! Me, I've been doing fine, even if with the cold and then humid weather the sore neck came back with a vengeance. I've been doing exercise and putting cream on it and wearing a scarf indoors and it's finally getting better. But the worst was obviously yet to come, because as soon as I left my family's home in Ceva, Piedmont, it started raining over there. And raining. And by thursday the river that runs through Ceva flooded the town. My aunt was stranded on the other side of the city, and had to spend the night in a hotel on top of the hill, with no electricity and a cellphone with a failing battery that she used to call us for a few seconds at a time. My uncle and younger cousin were home, by the river, in our nice flat on the ground floor, because obviously it is. They spent the day putting anything valuable on top of the shelves, parking the cars on top of a little hill behind the house, taking pictures of the muddy water rising, and trying to calm me down when I called them every other hour in an increasing panic. When the river finally came, it stopped a few inches from our house, but flooded all our neighbours. My family are all safe and sound, and there was no damage to our home, and they've spent the last few days helping their neighbours and cleaning up mud downtown. They're all shaken but fine. And we're all thanking our lucky stars that Francesca is in Ireland with her boyfriend, and most of all that I'm here, because that would have been the cherry on top, me with my delicate health and all in the midst of a freaking flood.

This entry was supposed to be about all the lovely things I've done during my first week back home, but then that happened, so I'm going to need a couple more days to relax. Stay tuned.
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Current Music: roll the bones - shakey graves
Health news first! I've had a cold for the past week, nothing much but for this cough I got. Which scared me because my left lung has been damaged by the pleurisy last year (good times), so I spent the whole week crazy anxious about it. This morning I had the usual blood test, medical examination and immunotherapy. The oncologist checked me all over and said it's just a cold, nothing new with my lungs, plus everything else looks even better than last time! That's a huge weight off my mind. I'm now torn in two: on one hand the sudden relief has me so relaxed I feel like falling asleep any second now, but on the other hand they gave me half a liter of cortisone today, and that's like three shots of espresso directly in my veins. Is this what doing drugs feels like? So weird.

In other news I'm still in shock from the election news, and I've been turning to Samantha Bee, John Oliver and Stephen Colbert for guidance and hope. Considering they all look various degrees of infuriated and shell-shocked, it's been less about comfort and more about feeling I'm not alone in still being unable to wrap my mind around it.

In other good news, I just bought a train ticket for thursday, so I can spend two weeks home, and I've already booked two therapy sessions with my therapist back in Venice. I'll stay there until 5 December, woot woot! \o/
Current Mood: energeticenergetic
Current Music: walk - foo fighters
10 November 2016 @ 12:12 pm
So, well, that happened. I still need time to process it, as yesterday I was out for most of the day, had my monthly shot at the hospital, and couldn't really focus on what was happening. I genuinely didn't expect that to happen. I obviously live in a very leftist bubble online, and it made me think that my friends, and the artists and writers and comedians I love and respect, shared their views with the majority of the American people, and it wasn't true. I don't know what's going to happen from now on. Contrary to what happened with Berlusconi, who only fucked up my little country, this has the potential of destroying a lot of lives all over the globe. I read the Guardian, BBC News, and everyone looked shellshocked. We woke up and it's a sad new world.

That being said, I want to stay positive and optimistic, because that's who I am, that's how I survive. We live in a different world than in 1928, a globalized world, a world with internet, where people are closer than it was ever thought possible. And that is our greatest strength, being able to talk to people from all over the world, vastly different human beings from different cultures, from whom we can learn so much. We're not little islands anymore, we're part of the continent. And that forces us to acknowledge different points of view, different lifestyles. That has to count for something. That has to make a difference.

To my American friends, stay strong. It's only a passing thing, this shadow.
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A quick PSA, in case some of you haven't read, LiveJournal just implemented a 'like' feature. It's a heart that shows up on entries and allows you to like them, as one does on Facebook or Tumblr. This feature shows up only on entries, not on comments, and, crucially, only for those users who switched to the new version. I'm still using the old version of lj, so if you ever like one of my entries, I have no way of knowing it, especially since the email notifications can't tell you who did it. So there's that.

There was a huge shitstorm over on the news community after the announcement, which is funny, because I remember how most people used to request a 'like' feature for years everytime LJ made an announcement. Personally, I have no interest in using it, as I'm still haunting this website because I like talking, and I like reading what my friends have to say, and one of the reasons I dislike Tumblr is because interactions are basically only likes and reblogs, and there's no way to communicate efficiently. But on the other hand, if others like this feature and want to use it, it's no skin off my nose. ^^

In other news, the other day I finally watched The Big Lebowski. I remember a friend back at uni recommending it to me, and I have no idea why it took me so long to watch it. but hey, better late than never, it was great and I loved it!
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Current Music: I just dropped in (to see what condition my condition was in) - kenny rogers
To those who celebrate it, I hope you had a great Halloween! I spent my evening re-watching Over The Garden Wall, even if I almost fell asleep more than once because I'm still feeling cranky from daylight savings time ending last sunday. It's only one hour, but it messes up my body's circadian rhythm like there's no tomorrow. It usually takes me one week to go back to normal.

During the weekend I watched Black Mirror on Netflix, because everyone on twitter was talking about it. Netflix messed up the order of the episodes, and I only noticed at the end, so I watched the third season first, then the christmas special, second season, and the first one at the end. It's an anthology, so it didn't affect anything, but I was wondering why the budget seemed to decrease in time. :D Anyway, I thought it was brilliant! It reminds me a lot of Philip K Dick, so if that's your kind of sci-fi, you'll love it. The acting is always great, and I loved how they didn't demonize modern technology: each episode is a study on humanity, and the technological aspect serves only to enable certain human behaviours. Fascinating. My favourite episode is San Junipero, because I'm predictable like that. ;)

I've also started watching Yuri on Ice, this new adorable anime about figure skating. The characters are lovely, the animation is great, and the figure skating part is done by people who know what they're talking about. It's awesome!

About real life, nothing much is happening: my aunt is spending the week in Sicily with her mom, so I miss her a lot. This evening my uncle is taking us to the cinema to watch Jason Bourne - I wouldn't normally watch it, as I find the Bourne movies super boring, but I love the idea of going to the cinema with my family, so I don't even care about the movie. It's also the week with no immunotherapy, so yay for no trips to the hospital or needles in my arms! \o/
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Current Music: everybody wants to rule the world - lorde
What a lovely day! Wednesday is my favourite day of the week: my aunt is home from work, it's farmer's market day, and we go shopping and to offices together, it's great. Plus now it's also the day they release the new Flash episode, so there's that too. ♥

Today my aunt, my cousin Francesca and I went to the hospital to book my family physician for another year: since I technically do not live here in Piedmont, but in Venice, I have to renew my subscription to a general practitioner every year as long as I'm staying here to do immunotherapy. Then we went to the market, to the bank, to buy a couple of cute shirts for my cousin, and then to another office for me. I walked a lot, showed my new cute curly hair to everyone, I had a wonderful time. After lunch I had a shower, watched the new Flash episode (I looooooved it!), bounced around my aunt who was trying to clean the floors. My mom used to say I was a lot like a cat, but there are days I'm more like a labrador puppy. :D
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Current Music: the passenger - iggy pop
Only the weekend left then I'm going back to Piedmont. I've got the usual meds on tuesday, then a two-week break, then the monthly shot, and then I'll be back here. I'm really getting the hang of this! I've learned how to stock the cupboards here with nonperishable food, when to book the sessions with my therapist, and how to plan activities based on where I am on any given week. And I've bought travel-sized Lush soaps and shampoos, so I can leave one in each house and always smell great. ^^


Speaking of, my Adagio Teas order finally arrived. I decided to replenish the tea reserves here a month ago, but as always the package got stuck at customs in Milan, and they sent me a bunch of forms to fill out and send them back, asking me crazy questions about my package, like "does it contain seal skins? does it contain products forbidden by the EU like animal bones or explosives?" or basically "are you a terrorist/serial killer?". What the heck. What do people order from the States?!


Other than that I've been enjoying this little holiday a lot. I went to therapy on the hottest autumn day ever, so I took a little stroll downtown before and after, soaking in the sunlight and taking pictures of my beautiful sun-kissed city without the hassle of the hordes of tourists. I love the fall. I resumed playing the drums and the ukulele, but always remembering to stretch because my muscles are still weak and soft.


And I finally managed to take a good picture of Sakura! You know, one where her butt doesn't occupy 90% of the screen. :D The funny thing is, I took this picture when I was really angry with her. I had been searching for her for twenty minutes, and she wasn't answering when I called her, and I couldn't find her anywhere. I started thinking she might have run out of the door, or crazy stuff like that, and then I found her. She had opened my suitcase, that I keep under my bed, and she'd been sleeping inside it the whole time. So I took this picture five minutes later while I was complaining with my aunt on the phone of how Sakura had given me such a scare and wouldn't respond when I called, and sent it with the caption "and she's just sitting here looking all innocent too!".

It is a pretty picture though. :D
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Current Music: if the stars were mine - melody gardot
The reason for my absence from these shores for the past few days is that winter in Piedmont arrived all in one day, and the temperatures dropped 17 degrees overnight, so obviously on the morning I had to take the train back home I woke up with an awful cold and a terrible case of wryneck. Couldn't breathe, couldn't turn my head, it sucked. I spent the last three days eating soup while wrapped in three blankets in my favourite armchair, full of paracetamol and using my cat as a hot water bottle.

Today I feel a lot better. My neck doesn't hurt anymore, which I celebrated with an impromptu dance party in the kitchen this morning. Sakura joined in enthusiastically, and now I have a feeling she's going to sleep from exhaustion for the next three days. She's not a kitten anymore. :D The cold is almost gone too, and I can even smell things again. More or less. On friday I called everyone and moved all my appointments to next week so that I could take the weekend off to get back on my feet. It's been raining and pouring and there's even been acqua alta downtown, so I chose the right weekend to spend in bed, no kidding.
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Current Music: you're no good - linda ronstadt
Real life news first, tomorrow I got my monthly shot (still immunotherapy, but this one is a shot not a drip), then on wednesday I'll go back home to Venice for a couple of weeks. I need to call the plumber to do a minor fix on the boiler, and since the weather has already turned to the cold and damp, the sooner the better. I also have to check with the bank and the lawyer, and I have a therapy session already planned for the 18th. I have appointments, and they're not hospital-related. You have no idea how new it is, and how happy it makes me. Especially since this is one year to the week since I was first admitted to the hospital, spent a month there, and got my diagnosis. I'm already organizing a little get together with two wonderful women I shared a room with back then, to celebrate how one year later we're all healthy and free of pain. ^^

My oldest cousin has moved back with us, as she's finished with her exams and needs only to work on her graduation dissertation. We go along splendidly, and since everyone else in the family has a job, that means I do not have to spend most of the day here alone anymore. That's probably why I'm always so cheerful lately!

In fandom news, the new Rick Riordan book, Magnus Chase and the Hammer of Thor, finally arrived, along with The Answer by Rebecca Sugar. The latter I've already read, and it's even more adorable than I thought possible. I can't wait to read the former, but I'll save it for the train ride back home. Today I also bought the new Green Day album on iTunes, Revolution Radio: you know we fucked up when Green Day have to release a new political album. It's awesome, and I loved it way more than the previous triplets (Uno, Dos and Tres). I hope they'll release a couple of singles on Rock Band soon, I would love to play them!

To be fair most of my free time this past week has been spent marathoning The Flash. A little backstory here: I'm more of a Marvel girl, I watched the first season of Arrow and didn't like it, and I had watched the first couple of episodes of The Flash months ago and then forgot about it. But then last tuesday they did an Honest Trailer about this show, and they were so enthusiastic about it I got curious and started watching it again.

And holy shit, it's SO GOOD. It has an amazing plot, full of plot twists but always consistent, great character development, a very diverse cast, a lot of positive representation for adoptive families, and a main character who's good and kind, who always sees the best in people. Plus, time travel and alternate steampunk dimensions. It's like they made a list of all the things I like, and just mashed them together in one clever, funny, heart-warming show. What the hell, CW, I thought I had you figured out. I was so wrong.

So if you haven't, watch it, you'll love it. If you have, I need to talk about it with someone! Although it'll probably be mostly flailing my arms like a muppet and squealing, so you've been warned. ;)
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Current Music: youngblood - green day
what a very long day. I'm exhausted. What happened is, I went to the hospital for my monthly therapy, they did the usual blood test, put the wrong label on it, took two hours to notice, and then had to do it all over again. Then the medicine was late. I entered the hospital at 9 am, got out past 5 pm, for a drip that takes 30 minutes. I'm soooo tired. While waiting I called the plumber, and then a call-center to update the address for a magazine I subscribe to, booked the echocardiogram for November, discovered a beautiful patio hidden in the garden of the hospital and had lunch there. When we finally, finally came home my aunt cut me a banana into tiny slices like my mom used to do and poured limoncello all over it (which my mom didn't do :D ), and I ate it with a slice of chocolate cake (it was delicious, and I can't feel my tongue). Then I hid under the covers, read the new chapter of my current favourite fic (it updates every tuesday and when it's over it'll probably become my favourite fic ever) and watched the new Steven Universe shorts on my phone.

Tomorrow I'm going to the farmers' market with my aunt and then I'll take a long shower and use all my Lush products because I definitely need some relaxing me time. ^^
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Current Music: the lethal temptress - the mendoza line
day one • a song
day two • a picture
day three • a book/ebook/fanfic
day four • a website
day five • a youtube clip

Remember last year, and two years ago, when I did those Reading Challenges? I had to interrupt the 2015 one for obvious reasons, but I've been doing a 2016 one, although I've never mentioned it here before. Sorry about that. ^^" So here's a summary of what I've been reading so far, in chronological order (all hail the mighty Kindle, that weighs nothing, I can carry everywhere, and stores thousands of books at the same time!):

The Kane Chronicles novels, by Rick Riordan. From the author of Percy Jackson and Magnus Chase, a similar story but with Egyptian Gods and a non-white cast. I loved these books, but regrettably not as much as the other two series, which is a shame because I really wanted to love them more.

The Raven Cycle tetralogy by Maggie Stiefvater. I read them because everyone on tumblr was talking about them and I got curious. They are objectively good, and they have a bisexual kid and a gay kid in a relationship among the main cast, and it's a major plot point, so major kudos for that. My one problem is that the writing left me very cold, and I felt I couldn't relate to the characters at all. It was beautiful writing, but very impersonal. I'm not going to re-read them, but I definitely enjoyed them.

Then I got that terrible infection, got hospitalized for ten days, and I re-read all the Percy Jackson books on my phone. I'm a fast reader and one gets bored quickly in a hospital. Plus I had no roommate because of the infection. Fun times.

When I finally got better and went back home I started reading A Wrinkle In Time by Madeleine L'Engle, because they had just announced the movie and I wanted to see what it was about. It took me something like a hundred pages to realize I had already read it as a kid. And it was one of my favourite books too! I... I have no excuses. I read the second book and got halfway through the third one before giving up. I still think the first one is really beautiful, but then it gets too religious for my tastes, and way too boring, with some weird pacing issues.

Then I read Gone Girl without knowing anything about it, and I finished it in a day because it was so intriguing and I just couldn't wait to see what was coming next. I did not see the ending coming, at all. And I have to say I agree with some of the accusations of misogyny this book has recieved. While I agree with the author that we need more female villains in literature, because female characters are usually trapped in nurturing roles as that's what's expected of a woman in our society, what she did in this book was to create a female villain whose evil nature is inherently linked to her sexuality. She makes false rape accusations, gets pregnant to trap her husband, everything she does as a villain is because of her being a woman. She's not a villain who also happens to be a woman, the unicorn we readers would like to see more, she's the Psycho Bitch meninists keep rambling about. So yeah, it's a fascinating thriller and the writing is really good, but it's very misogynistic, no way around it.

It's been kind of a disappointing year for me when it comes to new novels. Right now I'm reading The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, and so far I'm enjoying it, so maybe the tide is turning. ^^
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: a horse with no name - america
Just like I hoped, my birthday has been a turning point for me. I tend to fixate on dates and anniversaries, even too much, but sometimes that obsession does help. I feel like my birthday ended the awful year of illness and pain, and now I've started a new year of healing. I know it sounds a bit weird and new-ageish, but you know what I mean. I've spent a great week at home, I've made some wonderful new friends (thanks to capracotta, who is amazing), I've been to the bank and the restaurant and I've done laundry and everything feels normal and new at the same time. I feel like I'm taking control of my life once again, a life that includes monthly trips to the hospital, but also hanging out with my friends, going to the cinema, making marmalade with my aunt. I can do it. ^^

And in this spirit, here's an old meme because I need to start posting regularly here again, instead of only when I got news about chemo. New leaf.

day one • a song
day two • a picture
day three • a book/ebook/fanfic
day four • a website
day five • a youtube clip

And now, some fandom news! I finally watched that new Shane Black movie, The Nice Guys, and I loved it. It was funny as hell, the mystery was intriguing and had me on the edge of my seat trying to figure it out first, and Ryan Gosling and Russel Crowe have excellent chemistry. Plus the little girl was amazing, I can't wait to see more of her. I wish Shane Black did more movies, and that they did better at the box office. I think I liked this one even more than Kiss Kiss Bang Bang, and that's one of my favourites. Highly recommended.

Brooklyn Nine Nine and Star Vs The Forces Of Evil are back, and they're both still amazing. I know I'm overdoing it with that adjective, but it's true, they're both objectively amazing shows. I still have to watch that new Once Upon A Time episode, mostly because I got derailed by Final Fantasy Type 0: I played it for a month more than a year ago, then stopped just before leaving for the final dungeon. I can't remember why. Then last weekend I finally finished it, witnessed the incredibly depressing ending (even sadder than Crisis Core's, come on!), and now I'm replaying it from start because I'm not ready to let go of these characters. And I love the gameplay. ^^ Also I hurt my shoulder playing drums. Probably the most metal thing I did all year.

So that's it for me today, but I promise to be back tomorrow.
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: c'mon - panic at the disco & fun